Day 5 of Autism Acceptance Month:
TL/DR: I have finally accepted my self identity because my diagnosis gave me a label, and showed me that I may be different than others around me, but that doesn’t make me less…
I used to mask all the time, trying to fit in with those around me. When that mask slipped and my Autism or ADHD showed through, I would routinely start with negative self talk, and wonder why I didn’t see things the same as everyone else.
By the time I was diagnosed at 38 with Aspergers Syndrome (an older diagnosis that is now defined as Autism Level 1), I had become very introverted and hid in my own little world, not wanting to associate with anyone outside of the students I worked directly with (who were also Autistic or NVLD).
I have now had my diagnosis firmed up, and a more concise diagnosis based on the DSM-5 in addition to my more typical depression and ADHD. I have learned a lot about myself and the unique strengths I have, and am now very open about my diagnosis, and what I bring to everything I do. I am also using my experiences to help others who may be struggling with who they are and how to feel better in their own skin.